Well we have lots of snow here today. I am watching my Cat (the one DH calls the stupid one) jump up in the window trying to catch the big fluffy snowflakes as they fall.
I am staying inside today, while the ultrasound the other day put our minds at ease, I am still worried about this pregnancy. I am scared of a slip and fall or a car accident in the bad weather. I know DH is worried about me too. He works in the Emergency Medical field, and since I have become pregnant he feels that sometimes his days are filled with miscarriages and SIDS cases. I know on days like this when he is at work he worries about me too, so I think he feels better knowing I am safe and warm inside.
I am feeling a lot better about the pregnancy now, I think now I need to feel little Mo moving around I know I kept saying I need this and I need that to feel better, I just need to feel Mo mover every day. Right now I stare at the ultrasound picture and I can't believe that this is really happening.
Don't get me wrong I love Mo already and I love talking to the ultrasound picture and talking about plans, I feel like I am bonding, but I still don't feel like Mo is inside of me. I feel like when I am talking to the picture it is inside of someone else, not me. When we had the ultrasound I couldn't believe that the pictures were coming from my stomach. Does that sound weird??
So I have decided that instead I will continue the purging of and cleaning streak I was on a few weeks ago. I have gone through my underwear drawer today. I ended up tossing a whole bunch of bras, cute ones, ones I love, ones DH use to love on me. And I came to the realization that my boobs are never going to be the same. I found that all the hormones from IVF had already made changes in the girls, but pregnancy is going to take a whole different toll on them.
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I feel the same way. I still can't believe it's happening and that those ultrasound pictures are inside of me. My husband is concerned about me being outside in the weather also. I have strict orders not to even sweep off the front steps. I think that's going a little overboard, but if he wants to take care of all that stuff, fine by me! :)
Sarah, believe me it is nice that you are staying indoors today. We had to drive to Scarborough (past Beaches) from our neck of the woods - and it wasn't a pleasant experience - almost got rammed on 404!
I hope you can start feeling Mo soon! Hopefully it won't be hard kicks. Gentle love taps to Mommy, I hope!
i felt the same with my pregnancy,
now im scared to do anything with a baby!
good luck with everything! :)
& hang in there, the pay off of worrying to will be soon!
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