When we went through IVF #1 DH and I decided that we would stay positive no matter what happened, but I have to admit deep down inside I still had my doubts, I had this nagging feeling in the back of my head saying What if, what if you don't succeed, what if you end up not being pregnant.
I was really scared that this was going to affect round 2. With the Arrival of AF expected in the next week or two which triggers IVF #2 I am super excited and no matter what I can't seem to bring up those nagging feelings.
I sit here wondering where that little voice in the back on my head is, when I think "this time will be successful, this time I will be holding a baby in my arms," That little voice is gone.
I actually find myself shopping for the little pea already, so far the muchkin has a set of Nascar Sippy Cups and an M&Ms racing onesie, I can't seem to help myself.
I am really hoping that this is a good sign of things to come and not my mind playing horrible tricks on me.
So I will keep up hoping, dreaming and wishing that IVF #2 will bring our little bean home!!!
Stay away little negative voice in my head!!!
2 comments:
I'm holding out hope for you!
hoping and praying for your success on #2! I'm waiting on AF to get some final tests done and then with the NEXT AF, I'll be back in the stim game too. EEP!.... I love that you are already buying things for your baby. However they come to you, they will love them :-)
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