The waiting game

Maybe it is because I feel like crap, or because I have yet to hear from the clinic yet, but the excitement has died down now.

I am sort of looking at this like a task now, I will have to get up early this weekend, go in for blood work and an ultrasound at 7 a.m., I mean who wants to be dragged from their warm cozy bed at 5:30 a.m. on a weekend??? At least hubby is home this weekend so I can drag him with me.

Actually dealing with the clinic can be a pain in the butt. Don't get me wrong, I love most of the staff. But there is no way to get a hold of a secretary to ask a question, everything is funneled into voice mail with a promise that they will get back to you within 24 hours. Now it has been over 24 hours and I haven't heard a thing, which has me wondering did I leave a message in the right mail box? Did I give my number wrong, did they lose my name and message?? All stuff that I need to learn to just let go rather then focus and stress on these things. It is just these tests need to be done on either day 3 or day 4 or I can't start the cycle, which would not impress me one bit.

So for now I sit at work, calling home every 20 minutes to see if they have left a message there. Constantly checking my cell phone to make sure it still has a signal in my office. Holding off going to pee in case they call. I am not a very patience person, I hate waiting, I hate not knowing what is going on.

I think I am going to go insane!! Maybe I should have called this blog the Ramblings of a Complete Lunatic!